Christmas Party

I've run into a few problems when dealing with the game. The biggest one is probably still approach anxiety. I'm not sure if I will ever get over it. I have yet to really approach a set of more then one with any intention. If I do decide to approach it will be a girl when she is alone. The other problem is just not knowing what to say to them. Creating a conversation and making it flow are skills that I have just not mastered yet. I watch other people do it and they can bounce off one topic and move to the other. Also choice of topic is very important. It's important to listen to what a person says but its important to return the conversation in a way that makes her feel emotion. If you decide to talk about the weather you probably won't be enticing her into wanting to stay and talk to you.

The best thing to do though is to keep pushing through. Keep finding people to talk to. Regardless of gender, age, or looks just keep talking. It's very important to get into the social mood and just find anything to talk about. After warming up you usually find yourself just going after people to talk to and it usually feels natural. For me though I always just have that voice in the back of my head just pulling myself out of the situation and wishing I did go int here.

Last night was our Christmas party for work. Where I work there are tons of hot babes and there was a ton of eye candy. I definitely have a certain type of girl. I'm into white chicks that have a beautiful smile, that are not skinny. For the last year there was a nurse named Teri that is just perfect when it comes to my type of woman. For the longest time I couldn't even get the courage to go up to her and talk to her. I would look at her for a distance. I finally started saying hello to her whenever we passed in the hallways but I never did more then that. While at a bar last night I was talking up one of the other girls at the party and I get into a social mood.

I see Teri on the other side of the bar and I know I have to talk to her tonight. Luckily I was able to secure her alone for a few minutes so I started talking to her. I don't know what came over me but I decided to tell her my feelings. I told her that I really liked her and I wanted to get to know her better. She had a lot of self confidence issues and tried to convince me that she wasn't anything special and wasn't worth it. I'm not sure what to do in that situation but I tried to convince her that she meant something to me. I'm not sure if this came off as needy or not. She looked into my eyes and I can tell that she was surprised but in a good way. At this point people starting coming around and I had to cut my conversation short. I asked for her phone number and she gave it to me.

After that we all decided to head to a local night club. I arrived a bit after her and she was already out there talking to coworkers. I walked around talking to people and finally came up to her. She was still in a state of confusion from being a bit tipsy but she grabbed my hand and took me to the dance floor. We danced for a little while but neither of us were any good but we enjoyed it. I took her by the hand and brought her to some chairs off to the side. I continued to talk to her but she was sad because of events that had happened in her life. I tried to cheer her up but she had issues with her life and may not be ready for a relationship. I kept getting indicators of interest so after seeing it for awhile I grabbed her cheek puller her close and started kissing her. She kissed back and we started making out for a little bit. After we stopped a few of her friends came by to check on her and took her away form me. I continued to hang out for a bit and have fun with my friends before heading out for the night. I went to her and gave her a hug goodbye and told her that I would call her.

I'm excited but scared at the same time. I'm proud of myself that I approached her and told her how I felt but wasn't sure if I handled the situation right. She is the one that I think of when I think of the perfect girl for me. I don't want to get oneitis and I don't want to come off as needy. I want to show her a good time and see where this goes. Wish me luck